128 Days…
The end grows closer everyday. In 128 days and a few hours, I’ll be walking across the stage in my cap and gown, receiving my diploma (provided I don’t fail any classes this semester – knock on wood). It’s so weird and exciting to think to myself, “I’m almost done with law school.” Of course, this is really only the beginning for me. The beginning of my “adult” life, the beginning of my career, a new beginning overall. It will definitely be tough at times (studying for the bar, the legal industry in SHAMBLES), but I’m looking forward to the challenge and what may come.
The past few months have been a roller coaster for me, which is one reason I haven’t posted nearly as much as I would have liked to. In late September, the Mister and I broke up, and although we *tried* to make things work, ultimately it wasn’t meant to be, and in mid-October I moved out. I was lucky enough to have a great friend who was looking for a roommate, so the physical transition wasn’t that bad. I’m still in Manhattan, in a cooler/more hip/more fun neighborhood, with an awesome apartment. I get along great with my roommate, and Mona the cat has adjusted to my roommate’s dog.
While the transition of living situations was somewhat easy, the emotional transition was a bit more difficult. I truly cared about the Mister, and it was very saddening to see that despite all the hard work I’d put into the relationship and that no matter how hard I tried, it wasn’t going to work. I can be a very stubborn person, which can make it difficult for me to see the writing on the wall. I don’t regret the times we shared, or moving in with him fairly early on, because I’ve learned a great deal from the experience, both about who I am as a person, and who I want to be and what I want from life.
Words can’t describe how exhilarated I am about 2010. I feel like this year is a turning point in my life, where I will truly begin to grow into my own, and that the possibilities and opportunities before are limitless. I know that this year will require focus and determination and lots of work, but I have the feeling that it will definitely be worth it in the long run. I’ve already started taking steps towards bettering myself, from spending more time with people I care about to eating better and getting more exercise, to seeing a therapist (another post coming soon), and it shows. I’ve always been a happy, confident person, but I feel as if that I’m exuding true happiness and motivation, and it’s an amazing feeling. I’m going to try my hardest to remember this feeling forever, so that when the going gets tough, I have something to fall back on.
I can’t believe how far I’ve come from that 4 year old girl saying she wanted to be a lawyer when she grew up, and I’m excited to see how far I can keep going!
Cheers lovelies!
